So much for daily posts.
Went to Wisconsin from July 2-8. It was nice. Loved seeing everyone, visiting, relaxing. These past few vacations have been some what of an escape for me- anxious thoughts during those days haven't been nearly as frequent as they are today, and yesterday (hopefully not tomorrow). I need to get a grip on myself- I can't keep going on like this. I need to know that everything is okay... and more importantly, I need to TRUST that what will be, will be. It's not in my hands; it never has been. Now would be a good time to stop acting like I have any ounce of control because we all know that I don't. This feeling of being disconnected from the world and from myself, it's the most horrible feeling in the world- worse than a broken heart, and worse than being alone. Even worse than saying goodbye.
Deep enough?
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