Not too many people follow this blog- but I've decided to start posting again. Lots going on here, and I think it would be good for me to get some things out of my brain and onto a "page".
Where to start? I am 38 weeks pregnant with our second son. Tomorrow is my 38 week appointment, and I'm a bit nervous because last week he was laying transverse (sideways) instead of head down. Options are to go to labor & delivery and have him manually turned (called a version) or to wait it out a bit and see if he turns on his own. Con about having the version- he may turn back. Con about waiting- if I go into labor and he's still transverse, it's an automatic c-section. I am going to talk to my midwife tomorrow- at this point, I feel comfortable giving him one more week (until week 39) to see if he'll turn on his own. He's swimming around in a lot of extra fluid in there... and maybe he's just stubborn! Who knows...
This past Tuesday, Ginger flew in and surprised me! She stayed for a whole week (left this morning). She was here for the baby shower on Saturday that my mom threw for me. (Thanks again, Mom!) It was really great to have her here. She got to spend a lot of time with Noah. She and Donnie will be back at the end of next month to meet the newest addition (their godchild)!
Jon has been really sick. Tuesday morning he started noticing some red spots on his arms and chest. Wednesday night, he had a fever over 102 and I knew something was definitely not right. He slept most of Thursday, his fever coming and going. Friday, he went to urgent care and had some blood work done. Still no answers. Decided to stay at his parents until we knew exactly what was going on- in the case that he was contagious. Went back to urgent care last night (Monday), still no concrete answers. He had a dermatologist appointment this morning at 11 and finally we found out exactly what it is that he has! He must have had some kind of virus, and in turn, developed vasculitis. (In short, red bumps all over his body- thankfully not on his face!) The dermatologist says it will take one to two months for the bumps/spots to completely go away. There are some serious cases of vasculitis... but thankfully this was minor. He finally came home today and it is SO, so good to have him back.
We had a really rough week, maritally, and I truly believe that God used this time apart to fix what could have been a disaster in our marriage. When I get too overwhelmed, I feel like pulling away and putting up a guard and that is the LAST thing I should be doing. Anyway, to make a long story short... marriage is HARD. We will celebrate five years this year and even though you would think we would kinda have the hang of things, we don't. It's not something that you just "get" and it's great for the rest of your life. It's hard, every day, and it takes a lot of work. No matter how many times I tell myself that, I still think that we should have everything figured out by now... I guess I will have to constantly remind myself that it will never be perfect- but if we don't give up, it will indeed be a masterpiece in the works.
There is a song by Warren Barfield that really says it all. Here are the lyrics, and the link for the video.
"Love is not a place to come and go as we please.
It's a house we enter in, then commit to never leave.
So lock the door behind you, and throw away the key.
We'll work it out together... let it bring us to our knees.
Love is a shelter in a raging storm. Love is peace in the middle of a war.
If we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door.
No, love is not a fight, but it's something worth fighting for.
To some, love is a word that they can fall into.
But when they're falling out, keeping that word is hard to do.
Love will come to save us, if we'll only call.
He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all.
I will fight for you. Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwK73QbNPKo
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